since i was posting old posts i decided to add this one. i cant remember when i wrote this one, i just remember it was in the middle of the night an i woke and had a strong urge to write and thankfully i sleep with a journal next to my bed... lol... but i had lost it for the longest time...

The Courage I Never Had
I never thought I’d have the courage to say
I love you to my crushes face
always staring into the glare of your eye
wondering what caught your eye

I never thought I’d have the courage to say
I was done with you
done with all the lies you told
done with my heart you stole

I never thought I had the love to give
to such a person who hated to live
a person who was afraid of life
and what it could do

you would and could have took your life away
but I stood and told you not to give away

you told me you loved me
I thought that was true
then I saw what your kind of love could do
you took my love and my life

now your life is gone as well
I hope you go down to hell
you told me you'll never hurt me
I thought that was true too
and I believed you like a fool

now I’m here in this bright place
hearing voices as I moved from place to place
I don’t know why, but I feel home
I feel the love you once gave
I feel the love I want to give
I feel the thrive to go on
I feel the courage to love you again

I feel the courage I never had

lol... i can't rhyme... and i know its kind of cheasy but remember i woke up in the middle of the night, and thats just what makes it awesome... lol...